When life gives you idols...you idolize and support them...even if they dont know your existence...then reality hits you...all you know is thatIts not easy being a fangirl...   ForewordI, a fangirl, am not the same since I met you. My world is now completely occupied with thoughts of being beside you. How can I, a fangirl, love an idol who doesnt know the existence of me? No, I am not crazy. I simply just enjoy every moment that you are part of my world. Will you notice me in the sea of chaotic fans?  Because my happiness is yours, isnt it?Even though you found someone else that you love, I will support both of you.  I am sorry if I had said that I had loved you and got your hopes up.  Then why did you say it if you didnt mean it...