Chapter 8 - Suffering on (1/1)

Jiyong’s POV…The only reason I had flown into Jeju was because my best friend was getting married, that’s all. If it was any other person, I probably wouldn’t have shown up. I take refuge in my studio and having to leave it for these 2 days, was like torture to me, but hey, this was Youngbae we were talking about. That boy was finally getting married, and no matter how jealous I was of his happiness, I couldn’t have felt more proud then I was that he had found himself a special girl.Youngbae and I had split up the moment we got to the hotel, he went up to check on Eden while I checked into my own private room, then decided to walk around the shops down below. Youngbae and YG had taken it on themselves to make this wedding as private as possible, everyone that checked into the hotel had to be screened on their background and occupation, and they were going to those lengths. So for once, I didn’t have to disguise myself or hide myself, I walked freely through the lobby area.The past 4 months had been the hardest in my life ever. I was basically dragged back home that same day I was kicked out of the hospital. She kicked me out, someone I had trusted and loved, someone I was willing to share my life with, kicked me out like yesterday’s trash, and it hurt. I couldn’t blame her though, she went through a lot being with me, more than I would dare to admit, she gave up a lot to be with me. I lied to her, I cheated on her, she got hurt over and over because I couldn’t protect her. I didn’t know if I could protect her anymore. Those were my honest feelings. Finally I found a small restaurant in the hotel shopping area, and took a seat. I ordered a light drink and something to eat before I looked over to the small man made river I was sitting next to. Rivers, Ponds. Everything I looked at reminded me of her, and I wanted nothing more than to have her in my arms once again. I would do anything to prove to her that I could protect her in the crazy world that I lived in.“Here you go sir.” The waiter mentioned placing my food and drink in front of me. I just smiled and bowed my head in thanks before sipping on my drink. I hadn’t been somewhere this quiet in a long time; it was quite eerie to be honest. Hoku’s POV…I made it back to my hotel room after having a little chat with Youngbae. I left out a lot that I had told Eden, only because I felt ashamed by everything I had done in the small amount of time it took. I plopped onto my side, staring out the sliding door before my hands found their way to my bulge.“What should I do little one?” I whispered to no one in particular. Lying there in silence for a bit, I grew annoyed by it and turned the clock radio on. Sighing into the pillow, the song playing was something comfortable to listen to.Next we have the New Single by G-Dragon called ‘Without You’ The radio informed as my eyes shot open, I quickly rolled over to turn it off before the melody of the song began playing. My hand froze about the snooze button with my eyes staring at the time plastered on the clock. Lyrics here: www.kpoplyrics.net/g-dragon-finally-lyrics-english-romanized.html My eyes watered as I listened to the pain in his voice, the words he sung the meaning behind it all. It was my entire fault. Everything was. If I wasn’t so weak to love, this would have never happened. I quickly stood up, leaving the radio on before I left the room. I needed to get out of here.No wonder when I told those back home I was dating, they would look at me like some kind of whore. I was one. To quickly move on from someone I had loved to the bottom of my heart and in turn make him suffer because of my own guilt, I wouldn’t blame god if suddenly a lightning bolt struck me down. I sighed, letting the tears fall as I hide my face with the hoodie, again. I didn’t care where I was getting, but I needed to get away from here. My heart was falling apart again as I walked through the lobby area and to where it looked like a small shopping district. I stopped outside some windows just to peer in at the beautiful clothes hanging on the mannequins, then move onto the next. Before I knew it, I had bumped into someone, I lost my footing before a pair of arms caught me. I yelp in surprise at the same time, smelling a familiar scent that sent the baby in my stomach a flutter.“Are you ok?” The voice asked as my eyes shot open and my heart fell to pieces. I nodded, unmoving, making sure to keep the hoodie as far down my face as possible. I pulled out of his embrace, not having the courage to look up at his face.“Are you alright?” His voice asked as I nodded, bowing before quickly walking away from him. He was here, oh god, he was here. Jiyong’s POV…This lady, or what I thought was a lady bumped into me, I felt bad because I hadn’t been watching where I was walking either, and caught her.“Are you ok?” I asked worried keeping my arms around her shoulders before she pulled away from me. Geez, it’s not like I have some sort of diseases. She kept her head low, only letting the long wine red hair curl out of her jacket.“Are you alright?” I asked again before she nodded walking past me and down one of the hallways.“What the heck was that about?” I whispered to myself uncaring before I began on my way, only to stop when I tripped on something. I looked down to my foot to see a colorful braided leather bracelet on the floor.“Oh.” I said surprised picking up before looking to the initials on it. H.F.“Wonder if this is hers?” I whispered to myself looking back to see her nowhere in sight.“Whatever.” I muttered uncaring, slipping it into my pocket before going on my way again. Author’s POV…The moment she was out of sight, she ducked behind a pillar and fell her backside in tears. Pulling her knees up to her chest, she let it all out, uncaring if anyone saw her. She didn’t care anymore. That familiar scent didn’t seem to want to leave, instead it wanted her to suffer for everything she had caused. Grabbing to her arm, she quickly pulled away from her tears stricken knees to her now bare wrist.“Oh my god, where is it?” She whispered frantic looking around the area she was sitting and then into her pockets.“Where is it?” She begged to herself, pulling herself off the ground before retracing her steps.“Did he pick it up?” She whispered hoping it wasn’t true. That bracelet was the only thing she kept from her life in Korea, a Christmas gift from Seungri, that she had kept hidden all these months. And it was gone.