Selfish (1/1)

Many weeks passed by, we never really got any time alone with Kookie and I was getting worried. Not getting my Jungkook daily dosis was making me feel bad, I even started thinking he didn't want me anymore and it was driving me mad. I loved him, I needed him more than anything else in the world, why wasn't he fighting for us? I always heard to what our hyungs said about faking it on public and all that stuff, so I went for them when I started needing reassurance. Jin told me to try and agree on some hint, like maybe exchange looks and smile or just a simple word so we would understand and only we would get what that was supposed to mean. So we had agreed on just a exchange of looks, only that and I would feel reassured that we were still a thing. But one day in an interview, I looked at him, and he looked at me briefly and serious face and looked away. That made my stomach twist around and got a bit dizzy. I tried to pass it as he had forgotten and went to talk to him after the interview."Hey, you uh, have you forgotten our pact?" I asked a bit awkwardly. If he had just forgotten, I'd come off as too clingy and maybe he wouldn't like that."Ah... No, I didn't"My heart fliped. What?"Why didn't you follow then?" I asked as my hands started shaking."V..." He never called me by my stage name. What on Earth is going on!? "I think is best for us if we stop doing this.""Best for us? How is this best for us?" I started to panic. I don't understand."I already stopped giving a shit, you know? The whole media thing made me realize a thing or two, and I just don't want to be with you anymore. It's bad for the agency, it's bad for us, it's bad for our hyungs. Stop being so selfish, for God's sake." He spoke in a firm tone and quite an expressionless face."Y-you don't want me anymore? Did I do something wrong? Is this my fault?" My vision blurried, tears drowning my eyeballs."Yes, it is. You dragged me into your world and didn't want to let me out. This is me putting a stop to your nonsense. Please, don't speak to me anymore, okay? I am done with you." He said, walking away from me. I could physically feel being stabbed in the chest, in my heart, I felt actual pain, making me colapse. Rapmon came running to me when I was already on the floor, on my knees and tried to pull me up."Hey, what happened? Taehyung, are you okay?" He asked worriedly. I couldn't keep my eyes off the direction my ex lover had gone, as if silently asking him to come back. My heart had just crushed in a million pieces. It was the first time I actually felt something so big for someone, and it had gone away so fast. And it was my fault and there was nothing I could do to rewind time and make things right."Tae, what's going on?" I heard Hoseok calling in the distance. I saw Jimin and Yoongi running in the direction Jungkook had gone. When I could regain my senses, I looked around to see Namjoon and Hoseok looking at me, eyes so concerned. I guess I looked pretty bad."Uh it's no-nothing..." A whimper came out unwanted when I spoke and I just broke into tears."I don't think it's nothing, come on, let's go." Namjoon pulled me up and helped me walk towards our car. We went to a park and I was wondering where could Yoongi, Jimin and Jungkook had gone. On the way to the park, I cried like I had never cried in my wh